i smile when there is you

2009-05-15T01:40:00.013+08:00

hey to all my lovely earthings out there!! : D i know it have been very long again ever since i update my blog.oops sorie i apologise to your here k?don be angry and get mad at me k? be more patience and wait la cuz im really busy or actually can say i kind of lazy to update too ba. but for the past two weeks reali i was busy wit dance practise cuz we are trying to practise real hard for the audition day which we get through it smoothly!! Firstly i wan to say congrats cardiac arrest!!

Firstly wan to say thankful to wani for giving me the chance to dance!! and through tis dance i have also get to know some more new frens.its so interesting and funny ppl to get along wit can? just like a bunch of crazy ppl!! well get to know two other frens who are not in nursing nas* and jay*

(ps:don know got spell correctly anot)

anw, onli one word to describe when goin out wit them "fun".i mean reali fun to the max kind k?btw, since we got into the audition dat means we need even more practise cuz our coordination is not dat good dat means i will have lesser feee time which also means might seldom go online even liao.so ppl if i don reali update real often now on, don blame me k?i will try to blog as often as i can!! it's a promise!! : D

oh ya yesterday i went out wit dap to jp first just intending to go walk walk and thinking of slacking in starbucks cuz we are just waiting for time to come so we can go play badminton but who knows at last we cancel it cuz very far for me and also mira cant stay out late so no point since we can onli meet arond 7 the earliest?but in the ned we become like helping mira shp for her slippers >.<>

anw, after dat we decided to head to IMM cuz jp got nothing much to walk liao and in the bus something quite tragic happen to me. guess wat? i saw him _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ and his gf man ad they are just right infront of me and i didnt know till dap tell me.den i was like tis guy familiar.den it turn out to be him.it was so paiseh at dat time can? oh ya oh ya don kno wat wrong wit dat gal also keep turning around and stare at me like one kind when i change place. crazy gal.. nvm ignore her. don bother too.

(clue:first letter is C last letter is I)

oh ya don feel like mentioning it one but still i feel so paiseh la ue know dat i wan to say bout wat dap make me do which i will never do it in my whole entire life. she because of a bus dap make me run like a crazy gal la.she just suddenly pull me which give me a shock so i started shouting which makes me feel very crazy. and the thing is we were chasing the bus 105 but in the end we took 188. like wat sia. i told her we stroll or crawl also can lo don believe me and purposely wan to make ma run. she ah. anw,when we reached,we bought some food to the rooftop and eat while watching and feeding our pet(fishy).it have been real long ever since we last visit them.we fed them old chang kee curry puff,fish ball and yam pie.like can ue believe it them are fighting for the food as if it have been a decades ever since they eat la.so poor thing.so me and dap have decide liao we next time go will bring along some bread to feed them.

after some time it starts to get home so we decided to walk around to buy dap ribbon:) and den we step into the giordano shop seeing dat the shirts are not bad quite nice? i so fall in love wit the white long tee can? love it. love dat kind of shirt.and dap took the other two to try. mmm have taken some photo shall show ur later on. stay tune. well im so gonnna buy the shirt man!! don care lo:) den after dat we went inside giant and walk walk and den we came to the sushi section where dap go almost crazy cuz the price went cheaper den the normal price?but dats her dinner la so ya hahahas:) after dat we all headed home. dats all for now. later at a later time i will be goin over to her house to play. yay-yay!! ok gtg now. enjoy the pics!! : D

isn't it nice?nice rite? i <3>

the other shirt i might be tinking of buying..

fishy fishy( me and dap's pet)

do they look hungry to ue?? : D

2009-04-22T22:53:00.003+08:00

oh ya ppl i have forgotten todae we were talking bout some reali stupid and damn stuff like lynne's bra?cz we were all so tired and bored cuz we have all slept less then 2 hours to rush out the case study.in the end we ended up like waklking zombies.hahahas:D den we were saying if anyone who found lynne's bra,pls inform us asap.if not will have to start looking at the basar balam liao.maybe the aunties there all take and sell.hehehex:P oh anw, i have done a poster for it but will not be putting it up now.something wrong cant seems to be able to load.so i promise during the next post i will put it in k?wit all the other pics.ok ppl i tink i also starting to talk rubbish liao.gtg off first den.tmr morning shift again.after dat so bored got nothing to do.ok ok **taa~taa**

things have change

2009-04-22T22:33:00.004+08:00

hey ppl i know it have been decades ever since i update my blog.i know its super dead la.but from now on i will try to update more often k?cause also recently busy and lazy to update dats why.but there's alot of things that happen during tis period of time.

firstly,im having my attachment now at ward 33A in IMH.friday will be the last day man.gonna kind of miss the patient there.there are reali some that are so funny so cute but some can reali get on ur nerves at times.i tink stay there just for two weeks for attachment already kind of to much le ba dat almost all of us went mad?like yst,lynne,dap,evelyn and mira went mad.like reali totally mad.ue know wat they did?they was singing so oudly at the canteen we are eating in with so many ppl around la.so damn paiseh man!!at at point of time, me, vithiya and jayanthi feel like running away covering our faces saying we don know them la.like reali maybe perhaps too much of those patients that can drive s nuts and insane one?but its reali a fun and good experience: D

and as for todae,a small fight have occur among the few of us.ur should know who.but den things are solve now.so eveything is back to square one now again.things have seems to change but wat can i do about it?life still have to go on.cummon man! jiayou everyone!! : P

love you love you love you to the max!!

**muacks~muacks**

2009-03-14T02:14:00.003+08:00

ok people i know it have been like decades ever since i update my blog! I know its super dead.

BUT WELL HERE I AM NOW!! Updating my blog again..ppl who keep complaining to me see now i update liao k so don complain liao la.hahahas:)i know la ur just simply miss me rite?just say so and don deny.i know ur are.orhhh!!so sweet.

anw,holidays its gonna be holidays soon for 3 weeks after a week attachment next week but i cant make it on the mon liao.have to send my grandma off for the last time so i supposed i have to replace on the sat.bet goin be alone for sure:( exams are over like finally so dats why i got time now to update k?if not i tink i will still be studying now instead of being online?althought during this period is very stressful but den i meet a few new frens who are so funny la.they just make my day and never fail to make me laugh like crazy.especially ABEL AND FIRDAUS!!show ur next time who are they k?they are reali total crazy ppl la.it's like as if ue cant put them tgt,if not the world will be like upside down.

have been hanging out wit them recently onli.had so much fun la.like seriously have not been so happy ever since so long so long so long ago.ever since i realise dat ue are leaving me even further each day.wat i can do now is onli watch ue from afar but i don tink it does matter much anymore.im starting to forget uei don trust guys anymore.have been hust by ue time and time again dat i have lose all the hopes for all guys.i tink all i can do now is just leaving in my own world.im just gonna keep all our memories deep in my heart no matter how much ue have hurt me.oh well will be busy wit the wake recently till mon as itwill be the last day.most probably not coming online tonight and tmr ba:D but still ppl takkaire ya?

LOVE YA ALL!! * MUACKS* WILL UPDATE MORE SOON WIT PHOTOS I PROMISE!!

2009-01-08T23:46:00.005+08:00

ok i shall start off by showing ur some pics.just feel like.it have been taken sometime ago ever since i took it but i didn't reali post it cuz i totally forgot till i use my cam recently again.i can guarentee ue will fall in love wit the boy lo cuz he is reali so cute and sweet la.hes my mum student.but i pity him too cuz his parents will be quarreling at home most of the time den they wont have time to care much about him so he was kind of neglated.he need loves but no worries i believe alot of ppl will love him even more wit mor care and tnder love!!how i wish i have such cute brother like him!!so sweet and cute!! :D

2009-01-06T22:49:00.003+08:00

hey readers,
I dont think i will be abl to come online very often this year liao cuz of my schedule and the amout of workload dat i have.it's like a nightmare every night lo.anw,i cant update much todae also cuz i have got to go to study again liao.now is study,study and study only!!ok will update soon ya cuz reali got to get going before its realy super late and before i real got so tired and start falling asleep in m class wjich i dont want.ok wll update soon wit lotsa of photos coz i have so much to say and so much of photos to show ya?hahas:)love ya guys.tc:)nitez:D sweet dreams!! **muacks**

2008-12-29T03:13:00.003+08:00

thur got nothing much as i keep it a family day!!celebrate my christmas wit family!!just going out as a family lor.went alot of places but have fun and also finally gotten to eat my GELARE also alreay so happy!! :D

fri went to grace house as she invited us to her house.had lunch at her house and we just slack around talking and stuff like this en i have to leave liao as i have to head for the cafe celebration.feel so bad lo go awhile den few hours later have to leave liao.anw,tis year's cafe celebration is at pin fens house.we had so much fun sia.and we have new members into cafe ministry liao.like finally?:)and i tink we bought too much food dat we cant finish it lor.till the extend dat we have to like play the number game to like at least finish some of it.but after all it was real fun.i tink have been very long ever since cafe have such events already and such fun!!photos i haven gotten it yet.will upload it soon i get it ya?

sat as usual go to church

sun sleep till super late lo as i was having severe headache.don know why recently will just have headache.aiyo.anw, went car's house to slack wit the usual cell group ppl.just lazying and slaking and had dinner there.nothing much den we headed home.tmr there is plans again so i shall continue again on wat will happen k?:D

2008-12-29T03:00:00.003+08:00

wed,the cell went to mella's house to celebrate christmas but it feels like as if its chinese new year instead lo.the atmosphere just make us feel dat way.we played poker and pictionary!!after dat we actually wanted to head to jurong point for movie but the tickets are selling fast and it was all the front seat too so we come to a conclusion dat if itsthe front few seats we shall not watch but go and have our dinner already den we do something else!so we had our dinner @ LJS and we headed to starbucks for drinks!!STARBUCKS ue mean?oh my its my favourite lo.at firat when we reach it was like full la no seats so we waited and finally we gotten ourself seats.so we settled down already and there wego for our drinks.as we chatted we were to bored so we started to play games:)the name game and guess wat??there are even ppl who came up names like the radioactiveman,spongebob and andy lau lo.so lame rite?anw,we played like around 3 rounds and it was like 11 plus liao so we all headed home also liao as we are all tired too!!although nothing much but still i did enjoy myself.oh ya forgotten to mention.we went arcade first before w head for starbucks!! :D

2008-12-29T02:44:00.005+08:00

tues, i went out with some of the cell ppl again.basically almost the whole week lo.anw, went penisular first to buy some gitar stuff and also see joy joy's bag before we head towards town for shopping.window shopping i have to say?don have dat much money to shop.but in the end i still spent alot as i bought some art stuff.wat to do?who ask me to like the thing so much?hahahas:)anw,after dat actually wanted to watch movie so we decided to go west mall to watch as we don feel like staying in town area to watch.but who knows when we reach,the timing of the show was not onli very late and also there isnt any nice shows so we decided not to watch as some of them are still young and stay very far too!!in the end we went to have dinner and headed home straight.nothing much todae but ther are pics of this cool guitar.its doremon lo for goodness sake!! ok shall show your soon and stop all the talkingggg!!!!!

nice right??doremon guitar leh!! :)

2008-12-29T02:02:00.014+08:00

ok sun nothing much just went for d/s at vivo den after dat went panjang starbucks to look for joyjoy,jolene and alwyn.den later part jere and car joined in den we just sat there and talk walked around abit den left.dats all for sun.

now im gonna talk bout mon ya?hahahas:)sun we met for cell group outing like finally after so long we got an outing agin but not alot of ppl turn up also cuz i tink it was too late minute i supposed?then we like went all the way to east coast lor like so far rite?aiyo!!den it started to rain la when we are on our way to rent the bike.and i have to say it reali totlly ruined my whole moo sia.wasnt in the mood at all to cycle liao.sorie ppl i reali have to be in the mood to cycle derh.den jolene who also not in the mood also went to mac to accompany me and we have chatted so much lo:)hahahas:) ur wan to know wat is it bout ma?**SECRET**

anw, after the cycle we went to have our lunch and head for bowling and then arcade!!after dat some of them headed home den some of them headed to town while i have to head to xin long's house to meet the deco ppl for celebration!!well i know im like super late la but wat to do no choice have to spent time with my cell group as i feel i always don spend time with them.een though i came late but still i have fun too!!thx so much ppl!!love ya loads!!:Danw,there are some pics of the day!!enjoy!!

desmond and wilson!!

they look so gay right?? aiyo!!

the guys lying and slamming on each others??

not again?another one??

oh well dats me!! :D

me and yanni auntie??

me and mella!! :)

me and joy joy

me and jolene!!

the three of us!! preety and cute us!!wahahahahax!! :)

the cell ppl who went but not all of them la!!

2008-12-29T01:27:00.011+08:00

hey people sorie for not updating for so long as i have been really quite busy!!but now im back ya?hahahas:)ok i shall start wit last sat first.it was christmas bash and super busy la can so many things dat we have to rush out like no matter wat lo cuz its the actual day liao.anwway it was a busy and heatic day but its worth it lor.and have made some new frens.not all of them but some.and we did have fun working tgt! :D shall not talk much lerh shall show your some of the pics!! enjoy ya?

me with nicholas specs!! :D

xiao j my new fren with nicholas specs too!!

oh well my old fren ann with nicholas specs too??

are ue able to guess who am I? :D

my best fren in dance!! love her so much!! :D

oh the deco team!! love them so much too!!

xiao j and me!!so sweet right?i know!!

me and rowena(my other new fren)

2008-12-22T08:15:00.003+08:00

hey to all my darlings and my dear A.L.D.H!hahahahas:)im back from camp already like todae is the fourth day?but why did i update onli now is cuz i don have the time.when im back from camp,i have to get ready for the christmas bash where we have to like meet super earli to go there to do the deco lah.its super tiring can?meet at 9 each day lah and we end like 10 to 10 plus like tis on fri and 11 plus on sat?im lack of sleep ever since YI camp till now.have to do first aid in the middle of the night have to change there dressing for them den like sleep onli 12 or 12 plus onli?but nvm.its always good to serve!:D

i don have the photos wit me now but tis year wat i like bout the camp was the sessions!it was reali super duper awesome can?the speaker was great and i quite like the sessions cuz its like as if its a marathon a story where all the sessions dat he speaks bout are linked!!it was reali very impactful!!can have more of such sessions ya?but the games tis year was not so good as it seems not to be very organised!instructions was not given very clearly also so i supposed dats why the games doesnt seems to be very fun as we are like lost?

anw,i will talk more when im back tonight and if possible i will get the pics and upload it?:)oh ya i feel so much free now where i can sleep more etc etc..but i sometimes still not very free as i still have wat celebrations for tis for dat!!well wat to do!!knowing too much ppl is also a problem!!haiyoyo!!oh for now i will be goin to leaving my house soon for my cell group outing and after dat tonight will be the deco team christmas dinner celebration!!yayayay!!:D

OK GTG NOW!!see ya ppl at night k?tc love ya guys!!**muacks**

2008-12-15T07:33:00.005+08:00

ok ppl i tink this will be so called the last post before off i go for camps for 4 days!!

in maybe like half an hour time i will have to leave my house to bishan to meet up my cell group at 9.30 first for heavy breakfast and den 11 will be meeting the tribe for tribe meeting!!oh i cant wait for the camp to start!!hahahas:)so excited!!

oh for the A.L.D.H,don miss me too much ya cuz i will miss talking to ur and conference online etc etc..ur wan to msg me all still can but i will onli reply late reply at nite cuz dat will onli be the time where i will get back my phone onli.yuppx2:) so maybe when i am back from the camp but after 20th dec,we can go out tgt i supposed and have fun.can also celebrate christmas tgt!!

ok i tink i will have to go off first!go double check my things if i have brought everything if not later don have den die sia!!wahahahahahax!! xD my dear hao jie mui jesslyn darling!!let's meet up soon after 20th dec k?i reali miss ue so much so much much!! :( and too all my sec skool frens too!!meet up soon ya?book me in advance if not i have got plans den cannot liao and i have got some plans to go maybe overseas i supposed??so asap ya?let me know again!!

lastly,i will end with a G.A.L.D.H photo and stay tune for more when im back from camp!!love ya all!! *muacks muacks muacks*!!

2008-12-14T16:15:00.003+08:00

i know the post below this is super long but i just want to say sorry to those ppl whom i have hurt so much through my action wit wat i have done!!just wan to say hating a person is always a choice if ue wan it or not,and should always tink of the consequences of wat will happen if ue were todo some certain things this way!!tink twice always before ue do it into action!!ok gtg now!!pack my bag and get ready for tmr's camp!!will update more when i m back from my 4 days camp!!don missed me too much ya?cuz i will missed all of ur!!

ta-ta!!reali got to go now!!bye ppl takkaire!!love ya all!!*muacks*

feeling so free now!! i am ready for camp!!

2008-12-14T15:41:00.004+08:00

hey ppl i am in a confusion but its now all cleared i supposed!!
at first i reali hated them so much!!reali hate them til the extend till like to the core ue know??but why do i just feel so bad and sad inside me as if something is missing right inside my heart!!later i just realise dat it's the gift of forgiveness and love!!

i tink i have to learn to let go and forgive and forget!!GOD despite of wat we did and done to him always forgive us witout fail so why cant mankind do it too??i tink i will have to learn to forgive and forget more easily like how GOD did to us mankind!!as for me if i hate the person to the "core", i will make sure i wll make the person life miserable and so called "hell" out of his or her life!!making the person feel guilty for all their life!!

but i have learn something on friday.i know i am out of dance already and i have hated some of the ppl in the team i shall not say who.and i have also joined the deco team now as they are kind of in need of help?so i saw the other everyone else on fri as we all have to meet up at the stadium to take a look at everything.i know they all saw me and i saw them too!!we are looking at each other but no one even approached to talk to me other den my beloved melody who have been encouraging me all tis well and stood by me!!thx so much!!

i tink witout her,i would have just reali hate evryone literally everyone im saying.don ask me why but i just feel so unhappy and hated everyone at dat time!!i just showed them a face when they look over at me and stuff like dat.i know i might have hurt ur but im reali very very very sorie for wat i have done!! i reali regretted on how i treated ur.i know i should not do dat but just at dat moment i just have the urge to do dat don know why too!!i supposed the devil is using me to attack ur and hate ur so our r/s wont be gd!!but when melody talk to me i was smiling and laughing away even wit the deco ppl too!!but its when wit them, im not!!not even a grin of smile on my face at all!!but just putting on a long black face for them to see and acted as though i don know them and we are all totally strangers!!

but after this one day yst,i just don feel peace in my heart.im feeling dat something so heavy is like pulling me down!!and i know its a burden dat i have learn to let go!!to forgive them and forget bout wat they have done to me!!and when i know how much ur actually cared for me no matter wat reali make me felt so bad and woke up from everything!! thx for everything!! and now im feeling so free so happy ready for camp as i don wan to bring tis matter along too to my camp which will affect my mood in camp!!thx so much ppl wjo have been standing alongside wit me till so long!!love ya ppl!!and im now totally ready for camp!!cant wait for it!!

guys and gals,im missing the time dat we have spent so much time tgt!!reali missed ur so badly!!ur are dearly miseed and loved by me!!forgive me for wat i have done k? love ya all!!

2008-12-14T02:13:00.003+08:00

hey ppl i am now just posting a short post.perhaps i will update more next time or maybe tonight if i am free and not tired ya?hahahahas:) quite tired already!! will update soon ya?will be leving for camp soon also!!!!sigh:(

2008-12-11T20:53:00.010+08:00

hey people people!! just one more pathatic days and im free!!

wa the ward in the ward is killing me larh!some of the staff too!!but there is also some who is super nice one larh!:D

i know the ward is gonna miss us cuz when we are gone no one is there to help them then they have to do everything themselves liao.cant slack.oh well.wat to do everytime we go where.always to be blame first is always student student student!!wat onli sey.student is also human k?mind ur sia!!anw,tmr is the last day liao i just tahan with ur one more pathetic day and i will say bye bye!!hopefully not to go back.will pray super hard dat i will not get the ward nxt year ya?like der of course sia.

i rather paz and ward 43!!i miss ward 43!!at least the staff there is so much better can? anw after tmr will be having holidays liao so happy and cant wait sey.going to go out with vithiya ,mira,jojo and me i supposed to celebrate?to eat until siao!!i know larh recently we are like mad!!keep on eat and eat and eat!!but wat to do?it makes me happier like tis when i eat and carefree.not tinking of anything.darlings lets go eat to our fullest tmr k?

after dat i will be goin for deco!!helping out the deco team now since they now so short of ppl.don worry ppl.o\i will be ok.i know it will be weird dat y am i there.ppl will wander buti tink able to help them lighten their burden is more important bout my face.i know its gonna be very paiseh but still i will help if ur ask.so see ur,deco team,tmr ya?hahahas:)at most i will just tell wat happen if they were to ask!!

ok ppl im kind of tired liao and i wan to go watch my show already.last two episode!! tmr morning shift lor.kind of sian but nvm last day end early also gd.lolx!!ok i will blog more soon again ya?anw, this are the few pics dat we took fr the card dat we are goin to give to the ward 64.and also some pics of mira when she's young!! wahahahahahax:) yuppx2! here it goes!!will upload more funny ones when i see them!!

mira is the one who is the fatest!! :D

mira mira mira!!

2008-12-10T01:30:00.008+08:00

ok ppl.this next post is just some pics to tell ur wat we did on sun.for the post part i will write bout it again some other time can cuz i feel like sleeping liao my next post will be long so i don wan to drag it.ya2!here are the pics!! :D ENJOY!!

2008-12-10T00:49:00.003+08:00

mood rite now is : sad+kind of abit angry and also disappointed!

i know some of the ppl who are reading my blog now should have known wat have happen already.yes i have been kick out of dance.i mean REALI BEING KICK OUT FROM DANCE FOR GOODNESS SICK! i am actually not very convnced by how they conclude things lor.like wat sey.like so super unfair to me can?i don know larh but for wat i feel the both directors ur are not ther all the time or should i say not evenone quarter of the time too and ur just conclude like dat i am tired and seems not being able to cope.

come on!for wat i feel is dat i tink i myself know myself better den anyone of ur.do ue agree?if not den can ue tell wat i am tinking now rite?s i never say anything and i tink i am coping well but why do ur just have to assume dat i am not?can ue tell me why?judging from ppl's look may not be 100% rite all the time.if i myself feel dat i cant cope wit my things,i would have told ue sorry i tink i cant cope.eraps next year den i join?but i didn't.im doin fine.reali reali reali perfectly fine.just don know why r have to judge me through my looks???

i agree i may look tired to ur for the past few practise but hello come on imagin urself sometimes have to work afternoon shift den the next day ue work morning plus 8 hours of standing not sitting down at all plus carrying of pt,turning of pt,moving and lifting of things.for some of ur i believe ur have drop dead liao lor.but i didnt leh.i still ok but my look may just look a bit tired.is dat why ue say i seems to have alot of things to do and settle and ask me to take a break?if it is den i reali cant be convince by dat.

and ue also mention dat fast dance is not my type.den does it mean dat i have to forever dance slw dance and not fast at all?ppl have got to learn to try.without trying out new things,how can we learn anyhing at all?i know myself i not the fast dance type but i wan to give it a shot give it a try to prove dat i will be able to be flexible wit watever kind of dance.and i am the kind of person if ue say i cant do it the more i will work even harder to prove ue wrong.i love challenges.love to have new challenges all the time.but ue just don seems to give me the chance to.to prove ue wrong dat i can dance fast dance to.i tink dat its quite unfair for me lor.no personnal offense over anyone but im just telling how i feel and i hope ue understand me too.

at first i though like wa finally can join dance liao cuz i have been tinking of it for years liao but still it still end up like tis again.i always wan to be part of the christmas bash where non chrstians will come and they see the perfomances and know dat actually how much GOD love them and coming to christ.though dat tis year will be the year but didnt did i expect dat tis happen.do i reali dance dat badly?no improvement at all?at first i though dat i like not up to it i feel like giving up liao tinking dat maybe i reali not good in dance not the type but den i didnt expect such a thing to happen larh cuz though dat ur put in so much energy and effort to teach me den i shall stop tinking dat kind of ways and put in my best so as not to disappointed ur.

ue say i can wait till next year.i tink when the times come den i see how.i may not wan to join anymore.cuz im scared already.im especially scared dat ur will just do wat ur did tis year.don feel like getting hurt the second time.when i wan to commit myself so much into it already den ue ask me to take a break.i feel so hurt just so hurt ass dancing have always been my other part of my life.have been loving to dance lor.thought dat i can use dance way to worship and serve GOD is so special.but it seems to me dat my dream tis year have been destroyed.watever it is,we will just see how things go along.and for wat i believe i don tink im the most worse one.there must be someone else.don feel like talking much liao.ue have just kind of spoil my mood for camp.don seems to be excited dat camp is coming.ok gtg liao ppl!! :D i will try to update everyday k?don worry my dearies im ok!!if there is anything,will text ur to tell ur one k?love ya all!! *muacks*

2008-12-07T12:08:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey ppl :D
here i am to blog again.

have been damn busy with alot of things recently.arghh!can go mad soon one can?omg!hip hop is so tough lor but still nvm i will try my best ya?hahahas:Dgo grace tang ue can do it one! lolxzz!anw,have been u busy with alot of things.have been busy with my case study,so much to do and i have to hand it up on tues and yet i just started.omg!my whole day will be gone tmr also.oh my have to finish it tonight no matter wat time sey! hate it man so irritating but qy\uite interesting also larh cuz i can learn more like tis also.hehehex!

i have to work hard for both my practise and case study and ppl if im not online or wat means i reali damn busy if not means i reach home quite late liao plus im tired to go online lerh k?so if there is anything urgent or wat,perhaps ue can drop me a msg ya?:) and i will get back to ue asap.hopefully things will get better after 20th dec and i cant wait for tat day.wahahahahahax.

crap!also have to start packing my bag for my YI camp now also liao.its on the 15th dec larh and i will end my attachmenton the 12th lor.just nice.if not i also cannot go lerh! :( and im still a little sick now sia.hopefully i will get recover totally soon before 15th dec cuz i cant afford to be sick.have so many things to duel in camp also.cafe,first aid and maybe we might have practise also?maybe but not sure.depends on our progress.

i have been trying to keep myself from thinking too much missing him all and i have been busy recently and not trying to make myself busy but its reali busy and yet i cant stop missing and thinking bout him!can someone help me save me/been thinking bout him every min every sec tis few days and im so gonna miss him so much when this wed,thurs and fri he wont be around.crap tis is worst then anything else! sigh! :( but still i will try my best.

anw,i got to go off soon.have to go bath and meet daph darling and mira dear later to shop shop and to find his present.daph and mira don later keep on busying munch munch and munch and don care me ah?don know wat have happen to all of us recently.keep on eat and eat and eat.later sooner or later all will be like dinasaur soon also!famine all of us gonna die sia especially mir and hanif first.of course i will be the last.ok ppl reali got to go already.wan go bath liao if not later super late lerh.aiyo!!

ok takkaire ya ppl!love ya guys!jesslyn meet up soon also ya?miss ue sososososososososososossoso much! :( calista ue too!meet up soon also ya! have got so much to catch up with ue! love ya too!ok bye bye peeps! *muacks*

2008-12-04T23:45:00.003+08:00

hey to all my darlings who are december babies.

HAPPY BIRTHDAE!! ESPECIALLY TO KUKU UE SHOULD KNOW WHO UE ARE!! HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!it's ur birthdae todae yay but still ue have to work afternoon.poor thing.anw, 1st dec evelyn,3rd dec pastor daniel and kum yong,4th dec hazmi,7th dec shafiq and 10th dec vithiya! happy birthdae to ue all once again.well for now im trying to spend my time while waiting for 12 to msg someone happy birthdae!hahahahas:)i wanted to be special so i tink o msging at 12 before his birthdae end den send at 12 where his birthdae just started?sweet rite?i know.lolx!no larh just kidding but i know to him he also nothing one.faster 12 very tired wan to close eyes liao sia.arghh!!so ppl i will update more soon when i get alot much more better.and oh ya mira and daph pls pls pls stop bullying him can pls i beg ur!! :( oh wan to go liao get ready to msg den go to sleep.i can sense dat the bed is calling me lerh!!nite ppl.love ya.nites2!**muacks**

2008-12-04T09:56:00.002+08:00

sick and no energy plus no mood! :(

will update soon when i get better yah? takkaire ppl gtg now! byeye love ya guys! :)

2008-12-01T03:59:00.031+08:00

oh here comes the pictures!!

there are more to come that i took at home but will not upload today cuz it's far too much already.i promise to post it a at the next post k? :)

in the toilet!!

i love the effect!!

me with the crumpler bag!! :) nice rite? i know it!! don have to say!! hahahahas:)

the super nice drink!!

took it in the train when otw to marina!!

oh it's me,daph,twinkle and twinkle's house!!

nothing better to do!!

the smiley us!! nice rite? i know:)

we took it out of boredness!!

the cheesy us!!

oh azlan tried to block us but he didin't manage to!!yayyay!!

oh well us again!! :)

hazmi waiting for his turn to shoot!!woohoo!!

oh the blurry us!!:(

hazmi and daph with her twinkle!!they look so sweet rite? :)

the three of us!!

the childish us!! :)

oh look who's at the back!!

we are so bored!! :(

the lame us!!

look at who daph is hugging? twinkle!!

me and the baby twinkle!!

look at my face and look at where twinkle is looking at?

daph and her baby twinkle again!!

us again!! :)

me,daph and twinkle!!

me and twinkle!!

2008-12-01T01:37:00.031+08:00

it can be considered a horrible day and a so-so day to me todae cuz things have change during hours and of course my mood will also change lah.hahahas:)i was super mood out todae and it was being spoit ver since i go out of my house like wth larh.why must ue ppl alwasys do this to me sia.something have happen at home.something reali big dat causes me and my parents to quarrel.den i left my house wit anger.reali don know wat they wan sia.is it reali one day i leave my house and never come back they will be very happy.anw,went to jp to meet daph darling anyway.im sorie my dear if i were to vent my anger on ue or wat somehow.i reali couldn't take it liao.was too angry to think so much at dat time.quite something happen there.

anw,after dat we went to meet azlan,faiz,hazmi and sofi at marina.still wasn't in the mood but its getting better.cuz i off my phone.if not i will be so super irritated lor cuz i know they will just call and call and call me.clever me rite?of course.hehex:)then the guy wanted to play arcarde again like forever one larh they all.den ma and daph just sat around to wait for them lor.while waiting we took so pictures cuz super boring can.den after dat we though maybe we go walk walk around first while waiting for them and also can go and see ur should know whos present without saying larh hor before we meet them for dinner again.then me and daph went to eat kfc while the guys went to eat bk as daph have the craving for kfc out of a sudden also don know why.and plus tis is also the last time i can eat fast food until after 20th dec lor as i have to stop myself from eating fast food,chips,chocolate or anything dat is healthy cuz i can't afford to be sick as YI camp is coming and also Christmas bash is coming too!!waaa.cant wait for it.anw,after datthe guys went to play pool again.i wanted to play but like no mood so i ended up not wanting to play at all cuz once i no mood i play i will just anyhow shoot the ball and the ball will have high possibility that it will anyhow fly anywhere one.so better not to take the risk before i hurt someone.den me and daph started taking pictures again.so basically we took alot of pictures todae so todae ur will have alot of pictures to see.but tis time we took it wit twinkle "daph's kid".

anw,after the game as usual we will go have our starbucks.me an daph drank the..the..the..ahh i cant rmb wat is it called shall tell ur again once i rmb it but must go try it k cuz its reali sper nice sia.den after dat we all headed home.we all took 960 except faiz he took train cuz he say will take very long slow ah.den azlan,hazmi and sofi alight at sofi's house dat stop i suppose is go sofi house barh.while i head for 187 busstop to go home and daph to go find her alien.hahahas:)dat's all for todae?i will just let the pictures do the rest of the talking?i shall upload at the other post cuz its far too much ya,so enjoy!!:)

2008-11-30T13:20:00.003+08:00

hey my dear darlings out there.wat have happen to the GALDH man!we aint as close as how we used to be already.wat is going on.wat is happening sia.watever it is,don keep inside ue.share it out especially if its got to do wit each other.keeping ur mouth shut cant solve the prob too.so why not share it out man.i mean three ladies and one man.i don wish to see the group split up sia.can anot.is things possible ma?

anw, todae most probably goin out wit daph darling.don worry too much ya.ue and him will be ok one larh.ue will still have to at least face him for another year so make things clear todae k.all the best don worry everythings just gonna be fine thou.later going out to find present for ue should know who is it for those ppl who are close wit me.i will might get it from topman or maybe from other shops.aiyo see which one nicer den get which one lor.hope enough money sia.have been saving up so much for so long liao sey.if not will have to give him belated:(which i will try not to.so ppl i might be back blogging at nite again ya.wan to go bath and get ready now.tatata.takkaire ya:)love ya all!

2008-11-30T00:38:00.003+08:00

hey ppl here i am blogging again.anw,omg i will be so damn busy.my schedule will be so damn packed dat sorie if ppl im unable to meet up wit ur.im reali far too busy liao hor especially in tis month.so sorie.no time to spend wit ur for now first.im sure to meet up wit ur soon once i have finish my tis busy period k.actually once 20the dec is over cuz now i will be busy wit my dance practise and also at the same time have to get ready for yi camp as well as doing my case study which needs to be handed up on the 9th dec.wth.i haven even start man.oh crap.i got to strat doin on mon liao.no time to waste larh.anw, todae was still alright but i think i abit tired might be cuz im not feeling well barh.ya2.nvm.anw,we have our games played as a tribe larh.although not the whole of BLACK tribe,but it was fun all thx to the games master.hahahas.oh ya BLACK tribe is gonna win.wahahahaha.then after dat we have our discussion of the next week event.it seems quite difficult thou but its ok we are all gonna put in our best and leave the rest up to GOD ya.pray dat everything will o fine.and ppl will be responsive to the gospel too.jiayou jean cell.we can do it one.h one interesting thing is dat pastor got trick once by the whole of YI.mind ue whole of YI hor.its at least 700 over of ppl larh.cuz its gonna be his birthdae on tis coming wed so we celebrated for him a whole YI todae so sis wp trick him by saying got other pastor complaining about moving his car away quick.so pastor got quite irritated and came down just wanting to move his car.but when he come down, he saw us and he was like knowing smething is not right already.den we started the song and present the gift.

den during service,pastor show us the video that the whole church wll be using for evangelistic.both eng and chinese were shown.but i still prefer the eng one then the chinese one.but both is reali good.den after service though couldnt meet the cg for dinner but after when i went for my debrief for the dance,they just give the schedule for practise den can go liao.lucky it didnt take long so manage to still rush there and spend time and have dinner wit them.ahh.cant wait for YI camp and christmas bash.anw, i shall show ur my dance practise schedule next time soon.alomost everyday got practise lo.oh my.ok i gtg now.shall end here.im tired already.wan go sleep liao.don sleep too late also ya.takkaire,good nite,sweet dreams!!

love ya ppl!!muacks.missed jesslyn darling.meet up soon ya:)

2008-11-29T12:48:00.013+08:00

hey ppl.im back.ppl hope ur understand me if i were to vent my anger on ur very easily tis few days ya cuz im undergoin alot of stress and i mean alot its reali like a whole list non stop one.will running away solve the prob.no rite.so pls stop running away and face it and find some ways to solve it.blaming it on others doesn't help much too.so stop dat too.and ue should know who ue are dat i am talking bout.

will ue ever be there when i need ue when im at my lowest time when i have no one to turn to no where to go.would ue even show me some little concern dat ue care even as a fren.how i wish things are how it used to be.where we are so close,ue were so sweet,nice,caring and concern.but i know dat is never gonna happen again cuz now things do not seems to be like how it used to be.i give up i reali give up.im sick and tired of all this.how i wish dat i can just escape to a place where there is no worries,pain dat exist but just happiness.nvm.its ok.i know everything happens for a reason and i will still hang on there now.i will still be able to stand it.jiayou grace ue can do it one.i will not leave everything behind just waiting for ppl to solve for me.don worry i will take care of everything.but watever it is,frens the best is i can get ur to support me too.i can't go through tis myself.

wishing and knowing dat ue will be fine is all dat i need to know.don even wan to see ue get hurt.i know ur are going out tmr,so have fun ya.enjoy urself and takkaire.

im still sick:(

not well yet but nvm.

it doesnt matter so much.will see a doctor soon if still not well in two days time.

ok gtg ppl.maybe will be updating again tonight?stay tune!!takkaire babes!! love ya! :)

2008-11-27T22:22:00.030+08:00

stay tune now for some pics first.its quite alot i supposed so enjoy!!some of it is my old pics too!!

mmm.how should i start.so stress so fustrating sia.so many things happening recently.family,frens etc..sigh do i even reali have to go through my life everyday like this.family fighting parents like even wan to to break up,frens not on good terms,attachment so many things happening,uncle just past away.how should i say or wat should i do even.now they are fighting just right shouting saying wanting to break now while im crying and typing tis post.i don even one sure things to happen to me.i last time use to feel dat ppl are so pityful dat there parents breaking up.now whos goin to even know how much pain and suffering i am going through when i don say amything and look fine to ue ppl.i may look like im ok im fine and strong but im not dat strong as ue ppl think.i might just collapse one day unknowingly.for all the things dat have happen to me.i sometimes reali need someone that i can talk to reali someone who can even share problems with me and be there for me time in time when i need him.someone who can share myburdens someone to be my listening ears,going through hard,sad and sweet moments with me.can ue.can ue be the one.will ue even be there when i need ue.ue are always not ther whenever i need ue.however whenever i need ue,we ae just not in good terms.we just happen to quarrel.why why do things always have to turn out like this.the way dat no one will want.and should i cry,be jealous or be smiling away.ue have just been so close wit her recently.i just don feel comfortable at all.don ask me why.other ppl im ok wit it but just when wit her,i just don feel right.is dat wat ur mean jealous.if it is,den yes im jealous.im jealous and its reali super duper jealous somemore.im sorie i don know why but i just feel dat way.recently my uncle just past away which have been quite a big blow to me too.like so suddenly larh.den im quite stress also cuz of my dance as i still don know some of the parts.ahh.and its gonna be quite soon as we wont have time after 15 dec.going to be busy wit yi camp and christmas bash bah.things just aint going on right recently.can anyone help me.just anyone.anyone will do before i drift and leave away till too far that no one can even reach me.im in such confusion.dad can ue just stop it.stop it can.stop making mummy cry for ue.she may not take it one.ue should know her health enough.shes not dat strong dat ue tink k.i know and can tell dat she will just collapse one day.so guys out ther,stop hurting gals especially ur love ones before things that happen will make ue regret.guys always tink twice of wat ue wan to say and do before ue hurt another gal.should i just grab ue hoping dat ue will understand me oneday or letting go is the best solution.no matter which one is it,i know i will be hurt somehow.i think what i will say for now is i wish ue have happiness.as long as ue are happy,den be it even though i seeing ue happy will break my heart and hurt me reali hard the impact is reali goin to be very hard,i will let ue go hoping dat ue are doing fine and ue are alright all the time.seeing ue being able to be happy is enough for me.ILY and ue should know who ue are!!ok ppl i reali have alot to say but i reali no mood super no mood now to talk bout it.shall post it some other times den.

2008-11-26T18:32:00.003+08:00

Heyheyhey ppl.sorie for not updating for so long.will update soon todae but not now larh cuz now at mira's house lo.ya2!den all my photos all at home.lol.stay tune ya.if i not online or never update,means im busy reali very busy wit alot of things.YI camp,Christmas bash plus have to prepare for camp larh coming so soon sia.omg!busy man!wats tis sey!plus have my case study to do also..oh crap crap crap!! ok larh go off first ya.update later when i got home.confirm will.hahahas,takkaire ppl.

2008-11-17T22:33:00.010+08:00

hey ppl.just not in the mood to update now.will just post a short post for the time being.perhaps its cuz im going to be sick soon.and hes sick too.im so damn worried for him can.always will be sick when he comes back from camp.cuz not enough of water and rest i suppose and he tires himself out almost all the time.poor hi.just well soon ya.drink morw water and rest early.see a doctor if you are still not feeling well tomorrow ok.dont force yourself to work ok if you cannot take it.i think i wwil e next after he recovers.also dont know why if hes sick,i will be the next to be sick.confirm 100% chop chop one lor.ok ppl i want to go liao.update soon again ok.takkaire ppl.byebye.love ya.muacks!!

im mishing you so mush right now!!

2008-11-17T00:03:00.013+08:00

ok i shall reward your with some pictures first. this are some pictires that i took on friday.

ok i shall start with thursday first and firstly i want to apologise for not blogging for so long.just not in the mood.the ALDH should know.anw,thurs me and daph went off to vivo after we finish our shift to go look for our lao yi unglam shi hui present.then after that we went back home.then friday,i work alone and the ALDH work afternoon as mira supposed to work with me but cuz jayanthi got temple things so she change with mira and im all alone.supposed to go for my interview but i didnt go at last.not in the mood plus too many things going through my mind plus how can i leave a friend who is having troubles all alone behind.so i work free labour on friday from 7am to 8pm.the reasons is firstly someone i feeling very troubled so i stay back to accompany.secondly,i go home alo nothing to do.its paked with people every friday.cant use computer or what also.so its going to be damn boring.then thirdly is can say so i can accompany the ALDH.and lastly is i want to keep myself occupied and busy if not i will be thinking alot of things.so to refrain myself from missing and thinking of him too much,try to make myself occupied with something to do.now that we are going to ward 64 already,i suddenly feel like i am going to miss ward 43 so much.

this are the pictures that we took todae out of boredness.its only the GAD.

ok shall talk about today.went to meet daph and mira after my cafe duty today.was horrible sey.it was like having war lo when we are having cafe.not enough staff plus not enough time plus lack of space plus aiyo many more things larh.kind of lazy to name them all.anw,after that meet up wt my two dearies at vivo.and me and daph cut our hair.damn short larh but no choice if not later sure get catch one lor.anw,mira bought ljs so we went up to the rooftop ther to eat and the scenary also nicer i supoosed so we took some random photos out of boredness.hahahas.lame rite.after that we went to walk walk around for awhile befor we send mira off to the interchange.then after that we meet up with sindee to watch movie.sindee,thx for the movie.its time for me to relax and chill out.after that went to have my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner.was damn tired so i sept onthe way back.oh i just wan to say this.daph dont think too much liao larh k.no point also liao.whats over is over.don think liao k.hehehex.wan to think also think aout me ma.wahahahahax.

I JUST SIMPLY MISSES YOU!!EVERYTIME I TRY NOT TO THINK ABOUT YOU,THE MORE I WILL GO THINK.THE HARDER I TRY,THE HARDER IT IS FOR ME TO FORGET.THE HARDEST THING IN LIFE ISN'T FNDING THE ONE YOU LOVE,ITS MAKING THE ONE YOU LOVE..LOVE YOU BACK.

I CRY FOR THE TIMES THAT YOU WERE ALMOST MINE,I CRY FOR THE MEMORIES IVE LEFT BEHIND,I CRY FOR THE PAIN,THE LOST,THE OLD,THE NEW..I NOW CRY FOR THE TIMES I THOUGHT I HAD YOU.

SOMETIMES I DONT KNOW WHETHER SHOULD I SMILE CAUSE YOURE HAPPIER WITH HER OR CRY CAUSE YOU ARE NOT MINE.EVERYDAY I TELL MYSELF WERE BETTER OFF WITHOUT EACH OTHER,BUT THEN EVERY MORNING I WAKE UP AND REALISE I LOVE YOU MORE THEN THE DAY BEFORE.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY BACAUSE YOU ARE HAPPY,BUT HOW CAN I BE HAPPY KNOWING IM NOT THE ONE MAKING YOU SMILE.

YOU MAKE ME SMILE FOR NO REASON WHATSOEVER,YOU MAKE ME LAUH AT THE UNFUNNIEST THINGS,BUT MOST OF ALL, YOU MAKE ME LOVE YOU.. WHEN I SHOULDNT BE LOVING YOU.

YOU WILL KNOW WHEN YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE,WHEN YOU WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY EVEN IF HIS HAPPINESS MEANS YOU ARE NOT A PART OF IT.

DONT BE TOO GOOD I WILL MISS YOU.DONT BE TOO CARING,I MIGHT LIKE YOU.DONT BE TOO SWEET,I MIGHT FALL.

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCES OR EVEN A CHNCE FOR ME TO EXPLAIN.ALL YOU SAY AND DO IS SAYING THAT I ALWAYS SHOUT AT YOU AND YOU DON'T LIKE IT AT ALL.

THINKING ABOUT IT FOR DAYS,DI I REALLY SHOUT A YOU AT TIMES.I DONT EVEN BARE TO SCOLD YOU WHATS MORE SHOUTING.NEVERMIND,I WILL FORGIVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT.

BUT ALL I JUST WANT TO SAY AFTER ALL YOU HAVE DONE TO ME IS THAT I WILL STILL BE YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL AND I LOVE YOU.

2008-11-12T22:58:00.004+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you

I closed my eyes and the flashback starts

I'm standing there

On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd

And say hello

Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you, please don't go

And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh

Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter

And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"

But you were my everything to me

I was begging you, please don't go

And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and

I'll be the princess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me

They try to tell me how I feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you is fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said

Romeo, save me

I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you, but you never come

Is this in my head

I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad

Go pick out a white dress

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh

Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

let's take about monday first.have my attachment as usual till 3 den i went to imm wit daph and lynne.omg im supposed to be on diet but den the two of them psycho me to eat cuz all of us was reali stress.over wat?over guess.wat else sia.aiyo.the one we love so much lo.wa the amount of food dat we buy ah wohoo damn alot lor.like as if we million years never eat liao sia.like it's damn scary man.wat me ad daph buy is curry puff,carrot cake,shilin xxl chicken and drinks.wat lynne bought was dumplings,two donuts,popiah and drinks.i waslike so damn full lah.cant take it liao but they stil can carry on sia.omg.they are scary man.i was eating till i wan to surrender liao sia.there are some pics but not all stay tune for the pics later k.hahahas.i will try to up;oad the rest the next time ya.anw,after dat we went to the rooftop where all the fishes are and me and lynne went mad.we dance the song can i have this dance from the high school musical 3?infront of so many ppl.like so omg rite.hehehx.we know.cant upload don know why but its reali damn fun.shall show ur the next time.

tuesday,nothing much lor but its reali damn boring sia.nothing to do at all sey like as if all the ppl in the ward die liao lor.damn freaking quiet.but lucky got lynne and evelyn to accompany me.if not i tink i would have died of borednessin the ward lor.it's reali freaking nothing to do nothing ok i make it damn clear.and got my twocute patient also.bed 31 and 36 to talk too.they are so funny and cute larh.love them lots sia.oh as usual carry his bag and waited for him till he finish his things.always solong one sia.lol.

ok let's talk bout todae.wa damn freaking idolt don know which one make our unglam big boss angry lor.tis is the first time i see her get angry and its reali damn fierce ok don play play lor.i tink she having pms also barh.but still the unglam no 2 and 3 still manage to make her laugh again.i tink we are just too cute.chey..hehehx.den todae one doctor also irritate me sia.ask for sthethscope den don know how to return also.wth sia.not mine somemore larh.better return me before fri lor ue tis damn freaking doctor.if not o will have to buy him one new one.lucky is onli 20 something onli.if he buy the 99 one,i tink for the next month den can finish paying larh.freak sey.tis teach me the next time not to lend anything to the doctors anymore.ppl rmb ah.don lend doctors anything if not if they don return and it mean alot to ue,den dat's it.say byebye to it liao.

loving ue is so tough.can i just give up and forget bout ue.but i just simply can't do it.i not i would have done so.won't have to go through so much pain cuz of ue too.have been worrying and crying day and night just cuz of ue do ue even know.so wat if ue reali know.will ue even care or bother anot.whether im ok,im alright making sure everything is fine for me even as a fren.we used to be like gd frens but why does things have to turn out like how it is now.is it something dat i have done wrong or wat.can i just have back the old ue.can i be the one who can change ue all over.if i were be able to turn back time i will still love ue but things gonna change.the way things are being handled,things being done and the situation.i will change the world all over ue just for ue.i just simply misses the old ue and not the new ue now.

2008-11-11T10:17:00.000+08:00

i will onli be able to smile and laugh so freely when there is ue.ue are the one who can make me feel so loved and ue are the one who can make me feel dat i am blessed, dnd ue are also the one who can make me,smile,laugh,cry,angry and many more.ue have brought colours into my life but why ue have to remove it just mins later while im still enjoying.ue can bring rainbows into my life too but ue will just smash it and destroy it secs later telling me dat its all just a dream.its not reality.

can i ask ue?will i be able to take tis pressure anymore?will i just collapse anytime?if i were to collapse and die one day,will ue even care?will ue even come and visit me or will ue just stay aside and laugh not wanting to care at all wat have been happening to me?tinking dat since its not ur business?ue have been the one who have repainted the whole pics of me it colours in it but why do ue have to destroy it?cant it just remain as how it is?ue are the one who makes me feel dat there is still hope for love but now ue are like the one who is making me lost hope in love.wat do ue meat by dat?wanting me to give up?wat if i say i don?i will hold ue tigh and never let ue go?but i will let ue have ur freedom as usual but i will proect ue from afar.i will be ur guardian angel.protect ue freom any dangers and harm.

seeing ue get hurt it's like as if i am being hurt too.so i will ensure nothing harmful will come to ue.but is it reali not possible dat we can be back like in the past?where we are so close,ue were so sweet and nice,so caring to me.i don ask much.alli ask for is can ue tink of my feelings sometimes?can ue get anything out of it when ue hurt me?its not easy to forget someone.its not as easily as ue say t when especially when ue have fallen so deep for the person.when ue are so blind to even see and care bout the other ppl beside ue.all i ask for ue is just not to do things to harm yourself and try not to say things dat will hurt ppl so deeply.i will love ue and protect ue from where i am standing now.hoping dat ue are doin fine.

2008-11-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

sunday i was almost late for cafe.super tired and blur.like don know wat is goin on like tis.have not been sleeping well recently.don know why also.maybe just too stress up barh.lets hope so.anw, i was like sleppy and tired and like drenched out like tis lor.can't pay full attention during miie discipleship.im sorie.but i reali far too tired.den after discipleship,we meet up ong to give him his belated birthdae card and its a poster wit him on pink shades.he looks rather nice.den after dat went down to sufei's house to meet up wit azlan,sufei and hazmi at 2.but as usual hazmi is late again so azlan and sufei was playing dota, den i watch tv wit the mum?don know wat show i tink its hindi show but its quite nice?i like.hahahas.lol.after hazmi have come,the three of them had their dota for awhile first den we heading off to mustarfa.wa it was damn freaking hot larh the weather and im like wearing black.actually most of us.feel like as if melting liao sia.all thanks to hazmi lor.aiyo.from all the walking and turning,we finally reached.den guess wat?hazmi went all the way there just to buy a sthetoscope?wat onli sia.make us walk so much and sweat so much onli ah.but its ok larh.its fun.hehehx.den we meet seri and caroline(new fren dat i have made) for dinner after dat?went to plaza sing to eat mac.i know go all the way there just to eat mac rite?wat to do?they like onli.wahahahaha.den after dat we walk seri and caroline to the bustop as they say they are tired wan to go home,den after dat we walk to bugis from there?den waited for haiqal also to go play pool.wohoo.pool leh.love it.but don know why for dat day i not gd in it.i suck sia.ink perhaps not in the mood barh and tired also.mood out is also cuz of dat person.those ppl who knows wat goin on one should know who i talking bout.hahahas.3 sticks leh for goodness somemore infront of me onli sia.like wth larh.nvm if dats wat ue wan den i got nothing much can do liao.ue go ahead.i won interfere.wa den dat sufei like pro onli lor.play wit who also win sia.aiyo.pro larh sufei pro.hahahas.who wan to play gd pool go find him as ur teacher can liao.sure damn gd one.hohoho.arh!!i owe ue starbucks larh k?lol.den we played till like 11 to 11 plus like tis?and guess how muc in total?$39.50 sia.not cheap k?but we onli pay like 29.50 and the person still don know. whe we stare at her and ask ok she like ya den we ok lor just faster went odd onli.next time we play at timah larh k?cheaper sia.if not hazmi wan go mustafa,have gone like timah and play liao.den after dat we took train home.it was just an damn tired day i would have to say.freak!!

last but not least,miie myself!!

hazmi again!!

haiqal in action!!

hazmi and sufei!!

caught hazmi in action!!

azlan in action!!

ong and his poster!!!

2008-11-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

hey ppl wat is goin recently man!!all the ppl dat i know are like either quarreling or breaking up!!wat is tis?is tis the season where ppl are breaking up!!aiyo.. ppl ur should treasure hard the person ue love.chance don come the second time again.don start regretting when ue lost it.anw, i shall start by talking bout last week.it was like hatic larh..it madness man.like being torture in hell sey.was being scolded like when we ask for permissoin for the second time to do our project??wat is tis?hello!!but still we manage to rush it out..lucky sia.if not die lo. aiyo.but we learn quite some things larh and we have so much un especially friday.we play games and even dance.we even get the elderly to dance wit us.cool rite?hehehx.they are so cute and funny lo.im starting to miish them already.i tink i most probably will be goin on the 19 dec as we are being invited by them for their christmas celebration..hahahas.cant wait for dat sia.anw, here are some pics.let the pic do the rest of the talking? enjoy!!

us and chris!!

all of us!!

us and kim!!

the craziie us!!

hanif,zaimah,miie & amirah!!

hanif,miie & zaimah

the card inside!!

the card outside!!

den at 5 plus,i went out wit miie beloved darling to bugis!!hahahas..miish her so much.we so long never see each other liao sia.miie dear ue have beome more prettier and prettier each time.reali have so much fun wit her.talk so much lor.like non stop for hours?hahahas..we power rite?lol.i bought a new top den she bought shoes.like wa finaaly sia.first time or should i say she don even come out dat often sia.so i was quite happy and shock at the same time she bought something.anw after dat we went to meet miie fren azlan and sufei at panjang for dinner.as usual mac den we went to starbucks to slack lor.hahahas.i drank chocolate cream chip wit hazelnut syrup.it's damn nice.omg!!like as if in heaven onli..lol.den me nad miie darling talking then the guys play their psp lor.forever one larh they all.den miie and darling telling lame jokes liao lor cuz we quite tired from the highness we have the whole day?den we went off at 11 plus?let's meet up soon again miie dear?hahahas.ue takkaire k?love ya.muacks..anw,will upload the photos again,we took it out of boredness.don know why cant upload.sian sia.stupid com!!